I used to get really angry at certain situations and it took a lot of energy out of me. I always wondered what it was that would make such things as alcoholism, infidelity, selfishness and disrespect thrive in the face of so many forces trying to fight them. That was then. Now I do not get annoyed (or at least I pray very hard not to get angry) because it suddenly hit me that it is not at all what I thought it was for a long time.
Some may say that the reason an alcoholic goes back and does the same horrid things that humiliate and drive him to so much shame when he is sober is that he is covering up some problems that he can’t deal with in his life. Others may still reason that there is a certain enjoyment in drinking yourself silly and performing the most heinous acts while under the influence. I do not believe either of those philosophies. In fact, I think that people who abuse alcohol do it for a few different reasons of which come back to one thing – temptation. No one in their right mind would want to be in a state of disillusion for a long period, not knowing if they pissed themselves or how they got themselves into the bed they found themselves tucked into, clothes stripped off. They do not like waking up to no memory at all of how they got there, what they did, and worst of all, who put them where they are. It is very shameful as you would imagine to find that you are in your bed, clothes off, reeking of alcohol, splitting headache and no recollection of the events of the night before or maybe a specific time at which your ‘high’ was most intense. I have seen and dealt with scenarios that have broken my heart and the more encounters, the more I realized that it has nothing at all to do with the mere fun of it all.
We are weak beings. We do not sit ourselves down and fight what we know are our biggest stumbling blocks. Instead we walk around in vain efforts to make sure that the battle on the inside never flips itself to the outside so that no one knows what kind of demons we fight. What we do not know is that it is more honorable to fight the demons than to cover it all up while drowning further in pits that the devil lays for us but that we dig deeper into on our own.
I guess what I am really trying to say is that I realized that it is not the fault of the person who has been overcome by an addictive spirit. They feel bad deep down. I am sure of that. They cannot stand themselves in those states either. They are sunk in guilt after every episode. It is the flesh against the spirit and because the spirit is not well nurtured, it is not strong enough to get them away from the evils of the flesh. There is a reason that the bible tells us to put off our old self (the fleshly man) and put on the new (spirit led man). Eph 4:22 It is because these two cannot be together! If we indeed want to take up the cross and follow Christ, we must die in the flesh to rise again with Him in the Spirit and have eternal life.
It is not an easy thing and for some people, it becomes the one thing that is preventing them from growth in the Lord. I am here today to encourage all those people who cover up their addictions by saying that they love doing what they do and that it is a great way to spend time with friends. All the people who have at one point rationalized their thoughts to lessen the guilt. “It’s just a drink, it is not that bad” No, it is not that bad, but is it just one drink and do you have to? Do you know how to stop yourself or do you know your limits? Are you really spiritually strong enough to call the shots? Would you be better off not touching one in the first place?
I want to speak to all those people who make it seem cool to lead a destructive lifestyle. It is not cool and you know it. At one point, if it hasn’t already happened, that lifestyle will destroy you, create problems with your family, and be taken up by your children. In my heart of hearts, I feel a strong need for repentance and it saddens my soul to know that we have clouded our minds so much that we are a nation in complete denial.
Our personal demons have become national evils and we are letting them take over. I call upon all of us, especially those that know the Lord to pray, first for themselves and for their nation, brothers and sisters. I for one cannot stay silent. I have decided to speak the truth forever in love. It is not right to self destruct and neither is it okay to not be held responsible for causing hurt and pain to your family or friends. If you are in a situation that you do not like and genuinely want to come out of, then please please answer this call to help. It is your chance to make a stern decision knowing that there are people who will encourage you along the journey but most of all, knowing that God is there with you the entire time!
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” Joshua 1:9.
He is with you and He works in ways you cannot even imagine to make sure that you are still here. If He has done all that for you, why can you not accept Him? After all, it is only for your own good.
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